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Maybe it’s just me that i don’t really fancy my future wife to be a tai-tai.or in another words, a wife who doesn’t work and just have the husband working,supporting the family.Even though,secretly,they do wish they can be a housewife and take care of the kids.I wouldn’t mind that,provided i’m earning like 10k a month.Then perhaps i might think of not working.
I was reading a friend’s multiply.It’s seem that she doesn’t like to live in singapore anymore and she wishes to live somewhere outside of singapore with her husband.I’ve no objections to it,but when i did met up with her and our friends,she was bragging about how good life outside singapore was.And that Singapore isn’t a place that she would want to stay long.I’m not envious at all.I was just nodding.Not in agreement,just nodding.She is lucky,to get a husband,who’s rich and goes around outstation to other parts of the world.
But,when you kept saying Singapore is not good,i just wanted to say,
“eh.shut up lah.”
You’re just there for a holiday and you’re already saying that the particular country you go is great.Think about it.You’re a tourist.Of course they treat you nicely.They bring you to nice places.They bring you to places with nice scenaries.Nothing we can find back in Singapore,ever.
Your lifestyle of branded goods and traveling,all are from your husband paycheck.Some people here actually have to work for it.think about it.Money earn is money well spent.
You’re not even a citizen.Some of the citizen there wishes to go out from their own country.You know no shit about the country.The rules,the regulations,even the safety.
You are lucky to have such a life.But,please,don’t underestimate us singaporeans and our country.Because,you are also bornt a singaporean,no matter what happen,you’re a singaporean.Like it or love it.You are a singaporean.
Remember your roots and where you came from.Don’t be high and mighty.because,this is just testing times.
Yesterday, i came back from work,went to help my parents settle some stuffs and when i reached home,i fell flat on my bed,without even taking a bath and i slept with my outside clothes.I fell asleep and woke up just in time to go to work.again.
i’m burning out.
I’ve never felt this burnt out before and i guess,when there’s too many calls,it gets to you.sometimes.i felt it was quite a chore for us,paramedics,when the day is busy.who ever say,being a paramedic is an easy job.Screw the cool factor.It’s nothing cool facing life and death every single day and everytime there’s an ambulance call,somebody is in destress.
Today,i asked one of my paramedic friends to cover me early as i do have some stuffs going on later in the night to handle.I rarely asked people to cover me early,unless,i really have something going on.I do exchange duty here and there,and thankfully,my colleagues are generous and very flexible.kudos to them.but,i do not make it a habit for me.
I had my ambulance audit today.previously,my first two audits were not up to the expectation.And i was even threatened to be send for probation and the last audit was in sept.Thankfully,today,i didn’t screw it up.because i know,firstly,i have to relax.I always have the tendency to be tachycardic whenever i’m facing a test.It’s normal.People will tend to get nervous when facing a challenge.Secondly, i have ample experience for me to be at my best.advices from colleagues are helpful.Lastly,i’m doing it for my patient,not for myself.i want my patient to have the best treatment from me and ensure their safety and comfort in the ambulance on the way to the hospital.no matter what race or gender.Every patient is equally as important to me.
I am worried for my mentee.Now i know how i feel as a mentor.It’s different when you have a mentee.You need to ensure that they get enough experience before they go for their final test.I always believe,being a mentor,you have to be strict when needed and be flexible when you have too.I don’t denied that i don’t mind giving a piece of my mind to my mentee.Because,it’s nothing personal,it’s just about work.I want her to be serious in her work and ensure pure dedication to every patient she handle.I don’t care what she does outside but as long as she gives 100% for the patient,i’m happy.I know she will pass,i have the confidence in her.But at the same time,i am worried just in case anything bad happens.
It’s been a long day and i need to rest.
love.
And i’m as scared as anybody who has done this
I wouldn’t give it up for nothing free.
You took my life, turned it around.
And put my feet back on the ground.
I owe you,eternally.
- For A’idah
“..Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever?If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back.
What if you got it back?..”
- For One More Day (Mitch Albom)
